I recently was in the hospital, Matthew visited     me when I was very ill, he showed me the most  beautiful garden, we talked a long time and before I left he game me one of his famous hugs.  I got better after that.  I love you Matthew, bunches and bunches.

Tina, 

Well as we both know it has been a year since we lost Matt.  I had the opportunity to speak with Abby today and reflect a little and of course cry as well.  Being that Matt was simply like a brother to me and that I was not able to attend the funeral  I have spent the last year thinking about him, missing him and wanting to call him.  Sometimes on my way to work in the morning, I think about him and shed a few tears.  I miss him so much, not being able to hear his laugh or simply just talk with him about my problems, or listen to his.  As I mentioned to Abby I never did tell him how much he meant to me, and the last time I saw him I didn’t give him a hug; that bothers me.  Although I am sure Matt new that I cared for him deeply, I just never told him.  I hope that your day was good, and not filled with too many tears, and if so they were tears of laughter thinking about the good times you had with him.

 Matt and I talked about our 10 year reunion and how we were so excited to go together, and is saddens me so much not to be able to do so.  I really wish I had attended his service, to help bring closure to his passing, but since I was not able to; I simply deal with it everyday knowing he is in a better place and that someday I will see him again.  Well as you can see it is late and so I shall take myself to bed, I again hope that you and everyone is doing well.  I thank you for your support and your kind words when replying. 

Take Care and we will talk soon!  Thanks Again!  Rick